I need to feel something

I need to feel something,
even if it's pain.
I won't let you stop me.
I'll take the blame.

I cut and I bleed,
because I get numb.
I need to feel something.
I want to be done.

If I can feel something,
I'll know I'm alive.
And if that's the case,
I know how to die.

I need to feel something
so that I can love.
If I can feel nothing,
it's myself that will shove,
my body from the bridge
that keeps me alive.
I'll fall to the water,
where there I will die.